
I knew this path would be a difficult one and I would face unknown challenges. Running this little business of mine has really been a epic journey so far.
All the work has finally started to pay off for me. I feel more confident about my work and really proud of my craftsmanship and sewing skills. My mind is buzzing with tons of new designs and ideas. I have a renewed sense of confidence after working on this for 5 months. Now I am taking it to the next step. First it was all was a lot of talking and planning. Then there was time when I rolled up my sleeves and got to work. Now I have truly become a small business owner. I have a daily schedule. I go off to "work" on the weekends and take everything very seriously. It's all become very personal. This is my livelihood! I can't sell myself short on how much my time is worth. I have cut back drastically on spending and focusing on business development and budgeting. I hired an accountant! I'm getting all my paperwork in order.
I am enjoying working for myself. It is more challenging than having a job but for me I really need that. I need to be pushed every day. I need my jobs to differ day to day. I really enjoy having the day to myself to plan. I am exercising more than I ever have before. I am eating very healthy and cooking most of my meals at home. I'm learning how to balance my life with work and play. I'm learning there is not a finish line to reach! This is my life for the next few years and I'm going to enjoy the process and the moments day to day.
I forget what it's like to have a real job.
My coworkers are creative artists and entrepreneurs. They support me, I encourage them. We feed into each others creative drive. These are the people I get to see every week. My customers are very supportive and fun people. I get to make people happy for a living.
I don't know if I'll ever want to go back. For now this has become my new reality and I really do love my life right now. It is difficult yes! I have a very full life right now. I feel very blessed and happy to have this opportunity to make something of myself.
I wish I could express better how much different this is than working for someone else. The primary thing I can hit on is that I'm surrounded by people that work for themselves and make decisions for themselves. When I worked at a job I obeyed orders and wasn't encouraged to think for myself. I worked with others that were better at following orders than me. I worked with those in fear of losing their jobs and trying very hard to be passive and not get angry. That life seemed far more restrictive and oppressive. Now the world is open to me but I must work hard to create boundaries for myself and restrict myself. The possibilities seem so endless. The job made me feel boxed in and there was nowhere to grow and no promotion worth working for. The more I work now the further my business will go. My passion makes other people excited to help me.
Right now I can't say either one is better because I haven't explored the full potential of my business growth. What I do know is that I have endless possibilities of growth and I can go up as far on the ladder as I want. The ceiling opened up and I climbed out of the box that was my life and embraced the wildness of fate. I'm flying through the sky and there are many dangers but I would trade it in an instant for living life in a cage.